Just reached home, now 3.52 am =.=

Slacked at home the whole day till like 8pm den went out.
Wanted to get the stupid LV belt, but JingFu was away,
So gotta wait.
So met Alvin and gang to ShiTing's chalet for awhile.
Chatted and at bout 11.30pm cabbed back Hougang.
Went Hougang Point to eat,
Saw YuanSen JingFu Bernard JieSheng.
so I slacked with them
It has been long since the last time we get together.
tt idiot Jf didnt bring my LV belt out.
Gonna get it from him tmr.

I'm tired lols.

I really hope YOU didnt went there today..
aww still cant put up that courage.
sad.

gonna go sleep soon.
tata~

YES! no army!
Free times.
Can I meet u? =D

Sleeping early today
Gonna get back all the hours lost due to lack of sleep.
Please ShaoTing.. dun wake up in the middle of the night lols.

Felt alot better.
It's been long.
I felt so happy ;D
Tonight's gonna be a good good ni-ai-ight

Dammit,
I cannot be staying at home, or even meet the peeps,
for Sudden Attack the whole week or what lar!

I need to GET A LIFE

noone jio me go out anymore,
SO SAD.

This Saturday going ShiTing's chalet,her Birthday,
So Friday night, Saturday whole, and Sunday morning unavailable
Friday and Monday I got off from armyyy..
So good...

I NEED to go out luh.
jio me out ba!
anyone.

it's hard to make a decision.
it's been long since we've met.
shall hold it longer.
just drop it.


tata~
tata~

Past few days, hang out with Sudden Attack friends.
Met a girl, really look like Cassandra lar...
no comments =x

Anyways, taught Jeremy's gf Emaths recently,
thk goodness, from 22/100 to 43/80
THANKS TO ME =D
I have talent to become a tutor Wooo!
cant help it~~
lols.
actually is all credits for her hardwork.

I getting a pair of Specs soon,
shall look NERD.




yet to confess,
but i felt like giving up,
but such feeling remains.
if time doesnt heal,
what would be next?

I HAVE A LONG WEEKEND!
jio me out ok okokok??
Dun make me emo at home lols.


sometimes, crying just don't solve the problem.
it makes the problem even harder to solve.

The past has been haunting me.
Since then,
I've lost my courage.

It's like a hurdle, in which i could not jump over.
Everytime I wanted to text you,
I felt a strange feeling,
which led me to delete away the draft.
SMS-ing has became a difficulty.
To meet, I think it's fairly obvious. Even harder.

But, if I don't, wouldn't I lost all my chances?
Wouldn't I be procrastinating?
I'd just fall immediately.

But, Shadows of the past remains.

But,
but,
but....




What is LOVE?
till now, i felt it really sucks.
i really hate the pain.
it's killing me.


Feeling sad and frustrated at the same time.
Sad- She doesn't realise
Frustrated-I'm a coward.

fk it~

Just reached home from JY's bday party.
decided not to stay overnight.
Too crowded and messy le.

i really cannot put up the courage..
who's that guy?
i'm falling down.
down down down.
hitting the rock bottom
pain's overwhelming.


Teach me how to initiate.
My sociable skill has dropped alot alot.
Where's the ShaoTing he has used to be.
I'm like no more funny,
no more entertaining,
not so happy-go-lucky already.
no more ideas.
cannot plan.

Must build it up.
How? teach me please.
ENLIGHTEN ME

Back home from army.
Gg JiaYang's birthday chalet soon.
Tomorrow str away get back to camp from there ;]

The time has come.
But the chance has'nt.

tata~

HAHA! people,
now i know yuan lai my blog got people browse de sia LOLS.
put the traffic feed and i knew everything
Wahahahaha!

Nowadays, always playing my Sudden Attack.
Firstly, competition is coming up, gonna try winning.
Secondly, it really makes me forget about everything while concentrating on the games.


I have OFF on Monday! Deepavali lols.

guess i have to kick start.
But I dunno how to start =/
aww..

"被爱的人不需要道歉,
这全是我一厢情愿的."
Thought would end up like that.
Idk, stupid feeling.
Fate will decide.
Emo too much also bad for health.

i have pre-confessed depression. omg.

Freak, i felt that i'm dam retarded when i'm so emo lar.
ok shall not talk abt it.

these few days I really Zai Nan.
nv go out at all.
stayed at home all the way after my camp.
omg.

YEAH! pay day today,
and tomorrow gonna go shopping!
need to get a new pair of shoes and slippers.
maybe 1 more shirt oso.
Buying my LV belt soon.
just waiting for the stock only lols.

gotta stop here.


"I'm fighting for the girl in this love battlefield..."

tata~

As I walked back home a few minutes ago,
Light drizzle came pouring down.
and tears started rolling down my cheeks.

OK, I get it, I got everything already.
I knew it.
I'm not the guy.
You went out with another person.
During this busy and important period of your time.
Guess the person still remains in your heart.
I DIDNT HAVE THE CHANCE TO TREAT YOU LIKE HOW HE DOES.


maybe, just blame it on my jealousy,
Or my over-suspisciousness.
Over Sensitivity.
You mentioned how u fell in love with another guy.
Even if it's not me, It doesnt matter.
But I don't think so.
It's the same old person from months ago.

To the GUY.
So, Who are you toying with?
Her feelings, or ME?
Didnt you remembered what you said?
If what you said was real,
Are'nt you just toying her feelings, giving her a false hope?
But what if it's untrue?
You're a freaking bastard lying to me.
I gave you the choice in the first place.
You had chosen it, So keep it.
I trust you. But my consciousness does not.

Why are there so many things happening around in my relationship?
Everything really does not work for me.
Is it my KARMA
Must I really fail a relationship just because I've rejected one person?
I've rejected alot.
So I'm destined to be hurt in a love battle?
To be the sole heart-broken-er?
Enlighten me PLEASE.

I'm really getting things more obvious.
Hope she gets the idea.
I can't make a move now, Unlike Him.
I'm busy, He's not.
You're busy, but u find time to go out, with the group, where he's there.
I'm shattering with tears.
I already know what it meant.
But I'm not going to give up.

THANK YOU HENRY.
You are the only person I can talk to.
Thanks to the blog too,
All my unhappiness are being spoken inside.
So that this happy-go-lucky chap's personality remains.

This kind of jealousy,
really proves my feelings for you.